So, on my way to work today, as i was nearing the exit ramp I take to get off the highway, I passed one of those trucks that look like a mini semi and a van that was parked behind it. I dont know what was wrong with the truck but as I passed the non moving vechiles I looked into my mirror and watched as a truck/van (maybr like an explorer/expedition/xrt) did a 90 degree angle into the side of the truck.
it hit, richocheted off back into the middle of the four lane highway and pieces flew all over the place. My jaw dropped as all this took place and i started shking... moments sooner i could have been in betwween the truck and the vechicle. My car is small, it stough but small.
up till that point my day have been going really well. i get to work and im tuck getting blamed for a shitty machine that wont work right, being thought of as an incompetent fool upsets me greatly, andmy time of the month started since.
I dont believe in coincidence. But I do believe in larma, and that everythg happens for a reason.
Am I being punished for something? Am I being tested? Was it a test earlier? Are the Gods fucking with me, like a national pick on Nicole day? What the fuck? I dont even understand.
I waas at the boy friends house this morning and said oveover again if I wasnt getting overtime friday I.d stay with him. I was tired and un motivavted. Had I stayed would I have stsil witnessed something like this? Where were my warning signs?
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Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Aliens and Japan's Tsunami and the Apocalypse
So, I'm going to try and cover a couple things here, probably get more in depth later on, but this is m ore so just feeling and theories then actual, thoughts taken from texts and such and noted upon. Also, 'Im pretty sure the whole apocalypse theory had come up about 3456789876543456789876545678765 times since the first time I tried to post this [thank you phone for that], but I'm still going to say what I wanted, no what I needed to say earlier, and say it now.
Let me begin by saying that I many or may not like aliens [you'll find out soon enough] but no one should be judged because of their beliefs, or feelings towards said aliens, extra terrestrial beings, UFO's and other odd light phenomena associated with the subject. I have no right to tell someone what they saw or experienced unless, I myself am that person. I may or may not believe, or like the idea in aliens, but I do believe in psychics, sixth sense, entities and other paranormal behavior, and as much as I hate to admit it [but I will] the two groups are closely related.
I do not like aliens though, the though of them, the sight of them. The fact that they are far smarter than us, and could easily explode our minds with their vast and superior knowledges. However, I have yet to make my mind up about weather or not they scare me or just bother the hell out of me. I won't watch the movie ET, The ending scene in Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull with the alien and the Russian chick bothers the hell out of me, and Independence Day is one of my favorite movies of all time. I don;t like the aliens in that movie, but they don't bother me or scare me. So, I have no idea what to make of my thoughts in this sense.
on another note, Is, or could be Japan's earthquake, Tsunami, and not one, not two but three exploded nuclear reactors the beginning of the end of the world, and even though scientists have confirmed we can not ever be zombies, that it is impossible, can it in fact happen?
PArt of me wants to say no, it is scientifically proven, a lot of me wants to say yes. I do not much care for our race. I do not like how we treat the life on this planet, or the planet itself. I think slaying zombies would be fun. The excuse to carry around a sword or axe everywhere thrills me, and the small chance that I could be like a fairy tale pirate with a ship and crew excites me beyond belief. Am, I thinking irrationally... of course I am. In reality, if things are going to come to an end. Its going to be more like the dark ages, and we are all going to become deathly ill because of the radiation, only the rich are going to get meds, people will kill for food and the like, and in the long run we are all fucked. In the end I see know point to life. The planet will take back whats rightfully hers, and some other species will spawn in our place.
"God creates dinosaurs, God Kills dinosaurs. God creates Man, Man kills God..." A quote I like from the First Jurassic Park movie that Jeff Goldblum says. Obviously there is more to this quote but it makes a point that when people play God [I believe in more than one, just stay with me for a general basis] eventually its going to backfire, and the higher power and is only going to let one get away with so much, then the shows over.
This is of course all speculation, and the ramblings of a girl with crazy ideas. So it can be taken seriously or not, but any feedback, agreeing or disagreeing, on even minor things would be interesting to see.
Let me begin by saying that I many or may not like aliens [you'll find out soon enough] but no one should be judged because of their beliefs, or feelings towards said aliens, extra terrestrial beings, UFO's and other odd light phenomena associated with the subject. I have no right to tell someone what they saw or experienced unless, I myself am that person. I may or may not believe, or like the idea in aliens, but I do believe in psychics, sixth sense, entities and other paranormal behavior, and as much as I hate to admit it [but I will] the two groups are closely related.
I do not like aliens though, the though of them, the sight of them. The fact that they are far smarter than us, and could easily explode our minds with their vast and superior knowledges. However, I have yet to make my mind up about weather or not they scare me or just bother the hell out of me. I won't watch the movie ET, The ending scene in Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull with the alien and the Russian chick bothers the hell out of me, and Independence Day is one of my favorite movies of all time. I don;t like the aliens in that movie, but they don't bother me or scare me. So, I have no idea what to make of my thoughts in this sense.
on another note, Is, or could be Japan's earthquake, Tsunami, and not one, not two but three exploded nuclear reactors the beginning of the end of the world, and even though scientists have confirmed we can not ever be zombies, that it is impossible, can it in fact happen?
PArt of me wants to say no, it is scientifically proven, a lot of me wants to say yes. I do not much care for our race. I do not like how we treat the life on this planet, or the planet itself. I think slaying zombies would be fun. The excuse to carry around a sword or axe everywhere thrills me, and the small chance that I could be like a fairy tale pirate with a ship and crew excites me beyond belief. Am, I thinking irrationally... of course I am. In reality, if things are going to come to an end. Its going to be more like the dark ages, and we are all going to become deathly ill because of the radiation, only the rich are going to get meds, people will kill for food and the like, and in the long run we are all fucked. In the end I see know point to life. The planet will take back whats rightfully hers, and some other species will spawn in our place.
"God creates dinosaurs, God Kills dinosaurs. God creates Man, Man kills God..." A quote I like from the First Jurassic Park movie that Jeff Goldblum says. Obviously there is more to this quote but it makes a point that when people play God [I believe in more than one, just stay with me for a general basis] eventually its going to backfire, and the higher power and is only going to let one get away with so much, then the shows over.
This is of course all speculation, and the ramblings of a girl with crazy ideas. So it can be taken seriously or not, but any feedback, agreeing or disagreeing, on even minor things would be interesting to see.
Monday, March 14, 2011
I Take My Dreams Seriously
so last night while i was at my boyfriends house i had a dream he and i were on a train and it was raining and it had a steam punk// full metal alchemist kind of vibe. i was visibly some sort of un happy and my boy friend could obviously (im guessing we were having a conver sation about leaving not him but my current life in general.) next thing i knew he was pulling out a rustic looking silver ring with small gems which i am assuming are diamonds and he puts it on and goes about telling me that he knows im not happy and things suck right now but if i stay with him, stick by his side things are going to get a lot better.
of late m mother has resorted to a teen, young adult stage again... i dont really know how to explain it but i never see her and i feel thingss i do have become un appreciated even zel can see this (hes my boyfriend) and lately weve been talking about finding a place together and if we cant he wants to go back to his parents and wants me to come with him. ive been really eh about it but ever since the other night when i realised or at least it seems to be my mother has no interest in my life anymore which really hurts and when zel saw this he told me huld take me away and i think thats what my dream is telling ne. to go with him to trust him completely to follow my heart so to speak.
my mind at the moment is currently all over the place....
of late m mother has resorted to a teen, young adult stage again... i dont really know how to explain it but i never see her and i feel thingss i do have become un appreciated even zel can see this (hes my boyfriend) and lately weve been talking about finding a place together and if we cant he wants to go back to his parents and wants me to come with him. ive been really eh about it but ever since the other night when i realised or at least it seems to be my mother has no interest in my life anymore which really hurts and when zel saw this he told me huld take me away and i think thats what my dream is telling ne. to go with him to trust him completely to follow my heart so to speak.
my mind at the moment is currently all over the place....
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