so last night while i was at my boyfriends house i had a dream he and i were on a train and it was raining and it had a steam punk// full metal alchemist kind of vibe. i was visibly some sort of un happy and my boy friend could obviously (im guessing we were having a conver sation about leaving not him but my current life in general.) next thing i knew he was pulling out a rustic looking silver ring with small gems which i am assuming are diamonds and he puts it on and goes about telling me that he knows im not happy and things suck right now but if i stay with him, stick by his side things are going to get a lot better.
of late m mother has resorted to a teen, young adult stage again... i dont really know how to explain it but i never see her and i feel thingss i do have become un appreciated even zel can see this (hes my boyfriend) and lately weve been talking about finding a place together and if we cant he wants to go back to his parents and wants me to come with him. ive been really eh about it but ever since the other night when i realised or at least it seems to be my mother has no interest in my life anymore which really hurts and when zel saw this he told me huld take me away and i think thats what my dream is telling ne. to go with him to trust him completely to follow my heart so to speak.
my mind at the moment is currently all over the place....
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